If you want to read the entire story of my adventures this summer - clink this link to read edition #4.

Beers were scattered around the table.

Miley Cyrus was playing through the speakers.

Cigarettes and joints were being lit every few seconds.

A group of young British lads were screaming (per usual).

It was game night on a Tuesday evening at the youth hostel where I was volunteering in Pai, Thailand.

As 15 young travelers crowded around one table in the lobby playing "Go Fish" or something similar, I was in the corner, AirPods in, Harry Potter soundtrack on, trying to crank out edition #1 of my Asia Adventures series.

In hindsight, this was not the wisest time or place to hit a deep writing flow.

Amidst the chaos of game night, a water bottle got knocked over right on top of my computer.

The keyboard was fried.

The trackpad stopped working.

I was going to have to find a repair shop.

I was pretty lighthearted about the whole situation, as I knew it was my own brilliant idea to write on my laptop in the middle of a dozen high and tipsy backpackers.

And I also had this subtle feeling that in the divine plan of the universe, this was meant to happen.

My intuition was right.

As I was drying my computer and looking for rice to try and save it, a girl appeared seemingly out of thin air at the end of the table.

"Hey, I'm pretty good with computers. Can I see?"

In my state of annoyance, I begrudgingly said, "Sure."

Luckily, I did…

"I'm a Witch."

The girl who offered to help with my computer and I introduced ourselves to one another.

We had a bit of small talk about the usual: where we were from, why we were traveling, and what we did for work. I usually thought my answer to this question was mysterious and unique. I told her I was from Illinois, I was traveling because I was looking to go on an adventure and surrender to life, and that I made a living as a writer/ creator/ entrepreneur.

Her answer was even more mysterious…

She said she was a Witch from Israel.

That's one way to catch my curiosity.

Based on physical appearance alone, she reminded me of Bellatrix Lestrange from Harry Potter, but if Bellatrix had a kind soul and was in Ravenclaw instead of Slytherin and never became a death eater and joined Voldemort.

Essentially, she looked sweet and had kind energy, so I decided to stay in the conversation.

I asked her what exactly it meant to be a witch.

She said that she does Tarot Card readings for people, has a depth of knowledge in astrology, and can communicate with spirit entities.

Two years ago, if I heard a statement like this, I would have laughed and dismissed this girl as clinically insane, someone who should be admitted to a mental hospital.

But based on my experiences with psychedelics, encounters with other mediums and psychics, reading magical books like Autobiography of a Yogi and Being Ram Dass, and having the quote from J.P Morgan, "Millionaires don't use astrology. Billionaires do," floating around in my head, my mind was open enough to look deeper instead of dismiss this girl as woo-woo.

I told her I'd never had a Tarot Card reading or spoken with any witch, psychic, or astrologer, but I was curious to do a reading as I felt I was at a strange "crossroads" in my life. That word will come full circle in a bit.

She agreed, and so we decided to move to the other end of the table, away from the British Lads, "Go Fish," and the Marlboro Golds, and do a reading.

I didn't know it then, and it didn’t click until a few weeks later, but this reading was about to be one of the most important moments in my life.

The Tarot Card Reading

To set the scene, we're still in the middle of this youth hostel. Everyone around us is carefree, enjoying their travels, playing card games, laughing, smoking, drinking, and having a great time.

Meanwhile, here I am, intensely focused, locked in, sitting across this Israeli Witch with a magical deck of cards, a magical cloth, crystals to channel certain good spirit energies, incense to wade off bad spirits, thinking I'm about to uncover the secrets to the universe.

And in a roundabout way, I was.

The Question

To start the reading, the Witch prompted me to ask the cards a question.

Interesting… I get to ask the cards a question! What was that one question burning inside of me, occupying the majority of my consciousness? What was the one question that sent me on a one-way ticket across the world to Thailand in the first place? How the hell did I end up here?

About one second after I closed my eyes to search for the question, it came to me:

This question was the reason I went traveling. It was the reason I stepped away from the creator economy and the business game to go surrender to life this summer. And it was something I always danced between - That there was one side of me that wanted to play D1 football, work at Goldman Sachs, and become a highly successful entrepreneur, and another side of me that wanted to backpack the world, grow my hair out, get tattoos, smoke weed, find my guru, and pursue enlightenment.

Simply asking the question to the cards and to the witch felt like a weight had been lifted off of me. I'd finally succinctly summed up the confusing duality split of my personality. I'd realized this question was the reason I ended up at this table smoking weed in the middle of Thailand, talking to a Witch.

Now, it was time to see what hint the Universe was about to give me, in the form of three cards and an interpretation from my new Witchy friend.

The Results

The first card was the King of Swords. When presented upright, The King of Swords represents clear thinking, intellectual authority, truth, and strong communication skills, encouraging you to lead with wisdom and integrity.

The second card was the Ace of Pentacles. This card upright signifies a new opportunity for financial prosperity, material abundance, and potential for growth and stability.

The third card was the Two of Wands. This card represents planning, decision-making, and stepping out of your comfort zone to explore new possibilities, often involving future goals, travel, or expansion. It suggests that you're at a crossroads, considering your next move with ambition and vision.

You can see the cards below:

The Interpretation

Her reading was so spot on for my life situation, so accurate, it was almost scary.

She told me that the first card, the King of Swords, represented a problem that existed only in my mind, and not in reality. By cutting through the problem (via the sword) and reconciling it in my mind, I would unlock card 2, the Ace of Pentacles, signifying great wealth and abundance as a result of this new internal clarity. And the third card, the Two of Wands, represented a decision I would make between two paths as a result of the first two cards.

I didn't know how to interpret it at the time, but it felt accurate. I was creating the problem or duality of their being "two sides to me" in my mind. I was certain I was on the precipice of unlocking great abundance if I got clear internally on what it was that I wanted to create. And I did have a feeling that at some point, I was going to have to choose between two paths, though I didn't (and still don't) entirely know what this choice entails (but I have a hunch).

The 3rd card floated out of my awareness until right now, about two months later, as I'm writing this story. But the first two, the King of Swords, representing a problem that only exists in my mind, and the Ace of Pentacles, representing the potential to unlock great abundance, stayed top of mind that night as I went on a walk, pondered the reading, and looked up at the stars.

The question I asked the cards was the exact problem that was preventing me from unlocking the abundance I knew I was destined for. By solving this problem, or rather, dissolving the idea that the problem existed and realizing it was completely mind-made, I would unlock the abundance, clarity, and peace I was so desperately looking for.

Funny enough, I was about to enter a different state of consciousness and arrive at a subtle insight that would be the first clue to answering the question I asked the Tarot Cards in the first place, allowing me to cut through the duality in my mind (The King of Swords) and allow me to step into the first steps of unlocking abundance via a new business model that is my life's work (The Ace of Pentacles).

I didn't enter this state of consciousness and access this insight through meditation, reading, or going to some yoga retreat.

Instead, the insight came while taking LSD at a rave.

The Subtle Insight At The Rave

Thailand is the most free, open place I’ve been on earth (so far). You could buy mushrooms behind the counter at any bar or hostel, and people would be openly tripping in public on a Tuesday afternoon at 1pm. There are essentially no rules or regulations, and also very little judgment.

At first, this rubbed me the wrong way. Psychedelics had been an incredibly important tool on my path to freedom and awakening, and helped me through some intense healing and inner work. I’d never “partied” with them and only used them for deep introspection and self-discovery. It seemed to me people were misusing these substances and taking for granted the incredible powers these compounds can provide.

But as I was around these people and environments more, and began to realize I was learning just as many profound lessons going to raves and smoking weed as I did taking mushrooms and meditating in solitude, my mind began to open to the possibility of experimenting with a psychedelic in a party context and seeing which lessons I’d learn.

So, the time came at a Saturday psychedelic trance music festival in July. Two days after the Tarot Card reading. I went to the party with 5 of my very close friends, other volunteers at the hostel, and we decided we were all going to drop acid together. I was cautious heading in, and a little bit nervous, as I always am before a journey of any type. But WOW, was the experience magical!

When we arrived at the party, we went out back, sat in a circle, set intentions, did a little mediation and collective ohm, vowed we would be there for one another, and dropped in. And as I began to drop into the acid, my perception started to shift. This is when the insight occurred.

Every moment began to flow perfectly into the next. There was no separation. I had to do nothing. Everything was happening perfectly on its own. There was no duality or distinction between events. The perfect friend would appear at the perfect time, then the perfect song would come on, and the cycle repeated itself. The entire experience collapsed into one, harmonious, beautiful flow.

The insight of non-separation and everything happening on its own, beyond cause and effect, was so subtle I could barely pick it up, and it didn’t click in my mind until reflecting on it in hindsight, but it was so profound I intuitively felt that night my perception of reality was changed forever.

I can recall a handful of beautiful moments that night and into the early morning:

I was dancing in the midst of a sea of Israeli people, and my heart exploded for them. Tears swelled in my eyes. These people, 20-something-year-old kids like myself, had to fight in the army, go to war, and try to kill other human beings. Some of their friends were killed in battle. They constantly felt they were on the run and under attack. And these were kids just like me, traveling, dancing, and raving, just enjoying the full expression of human life. Holy shit, I have chills and tears in my eyes again as I write this. The Israeli people will forever hold a special place in my heart. (,: ~ <3

A French girl I had a crush on came up to me and gifted me a rose. I understand what French romance was in this moment. I only realized 5 hours later it was actually a fake rose, which was another powerful lesson of my idealization of romance and wanting it to be real so badly, which has been a part of me since as early as I can remember.

I went to meditate on top of the White Buddha at 8am after the rave, and magically, one by one, 10 of my friends showed up at the bottom of the stairs, coming to join at the top. We danced on top of the mountain next to the statue. We meditated together. We smoked joints and laughed our asses off for hours. What an absolutely incredible moment.

And the funny thing about this entire experience is, my perception of myself and reality was more clear in this state of consciousness than my normal state of consciousness. I knew exactly who I was. And I realized I love myself and life completely.

I journaled about the experience the day after:

My Journal Entry Post-Rave

The Subtle Truth of Fluidity: “ A subtle truth was learned during the psytrance party on Wednesday, July 24, into the morning of Thursday, July 25. All is fluid. Each moment flows perfectly into the next. Everything is happening on its own. Life (also me) cannot be compartmentalized down to separate, defined boxes. There needs to be no monk mode, season or travel season. Just as it is unwise to define oneself by a restricted label defining life by restricted concepts or symbols is also unwise. You cannot put yourself, life, or God into a defined box. step further, is understanding the truth that you, life, and God are not separate, the problem of compartmentalization and force construction ceases to exist.

A Little Context On LSD

From my experience, LSD alters your perception in a way that allows you to see more clearly than you do in your normal state of waking consciousness when your vision is clouded with thoughts, judgments, fear, planning, strategizing, and the rest of the illusion the mind creates sometimes called “Maya” in Hindu Philosophy, or “original sin” in Christianity.

It allows you to peer into what Jesus called “The Kingdom of Heaven” or the Buddha called “Nirvana,” but the catch is you have to leave after about 6 hours. This is why psychedelics and plant medicine can be an accelerator of spiritual progress and a glimpse into the True Nature of Reality, but without doing the inner work and integrating the experiences in your sober, waking state of consciousness, the drugs can become the barrier to your greatest Realization.

Ram Dass, the great spiritual teacher, traveled to India in search of a guru and spiritual enlightenment and carried with him a bottle of LSD. He famously gave 400mg of LSD (4x the normal amount, certain to send 99.99% of people to outer space) to his guru Maharaji. It had no effect on him. It was just like a normal Tuesday for this liberated spirit.

Ram Dass was perplexed. He thought Maharaji had maybe played a trick on him and spit out the acid when he wasn’t looking. So he offered it to him again. He watched Maharaji clearly take the LSD, put four tabs under his tongue, and swallow. Again, no effect.

Ram Dass later reflected on the experience, saying, “You don’t need a bus ticket to Chicago if you’re already in Chicago.”

It was at this point that Maharaji told Ram Dass he must give up LSD, as it was a crutch and a barrier from his ultimate Realization. So he did, and only revisited the drug once every few years to “make sure he hadn’t forgotten anything from that realm.”

This is not meant to be a lecture on LSD or drugs. I’m just adding context to my only personal experience for the sake of entertainment and because I enjoy this anecdote.

If you want to learn more about LSD, watch this documentary from Michael Pollen and read about what Steve Jobs had to say about acid here.

Anyways, coming full circle to my realization.

This subtle insight of the illusion of compartmentalization of life and the dissolution of distinction between seemingly different events was about to come full circle to the internal world, when I hopped on a call with my best friend Tyler for the first time in months.

The Kundalini Call

After about a few weeks, the rave, and other wild events, I'd almost forgotten about my tarot card reading.

I was back in the flow of life, finishing my time volunteering at the hostel, and moving into my own private place for the first time in months. I felt liberated to be back in my own energy and not sharing a dorm room with six other people.

On this first night back, I was feeling extremely creative and inspired and was up at midnight writing. It was noon in Chicago, and so everyone from home was awake. I finally had the chance to give my best friend Tyler a call, and it proved to be one of the most electric phone calls of my life.

We started to talk about topics I hadn’t talked about in months. The creator economy. Online business. Our plans and visions for the future. Because I allowed myself to step away for months, I came back to these topics with a new perspective on life and a clear mind. And everything clicked.

The Tarot Card Reading. The subtle insight at the rave. My time volunteering and doing in-person work at the hostel It was all me! I didn't have to compartmentalize my life into different seasons or myself into different personalities. All of it, from the desire to grow my hair out and get tattoos and the desire to build a school and massive movement around freedom and consciousness, was all a part of me.

Traveling, smoking weed, hitting deep writing flows, building projects, teaching, going to raves, stepping into my masculine when necessary, surrendering into my feminine when necessary, dancing, playing, lifting weights, using a schedule, not using a schedule etc, etc.

I realized I no longer had to choose. Everything was unfolding on it's own.

I, an expression of nature, did not have to compartmentalize myself into defined boxes. Just like each moment at the rave flowed magically, beautifully, and synchronously from one moment to the next, my entire life could be the same, IF I allowed it to be so, via letting go of control, letting go of needing to strategize and plan, and by shifting my perception to being One with the Universe instead of separate from it.

The school I will build doesn't have to revolve around one topic or one transformation. It could be everything I'm interested in, synthesized into one library! The projects I will create don't have to be either online or in person. They can be both online and in-person and interplay with one another!

I didn't have to choose between monk mode, hippie mode, spiritual mode, travel mode, wizard mode, or hibernation mode. If I'm in alignment internally via my connection to God and my chakras and I'm in alignment externally via pursuing a purpose greater than myself and bringing creations into the world, the right action will reveal itself in each moment as a result of presence, authenticity, and alignment.

In this state of clear peception and alignment, I knew exactly the vision for my next steps forward.

I would create a larger school at the intersection of consciousness and the creator economy and bring my friends in as co-creators and educators.

I would create a private school with a select handful of dedicated students for more intimate access.

I would run in-person retreats and Conscious Creator festivals around the world with a combination of education, self-exploration, music, movement, play, and real connection. I could even DJ at these events someday too.

I would be the vessel for all of it. All I had to do was stay clear, get out of the way, and let God work through me to create these containers for others to play, learn, connect, explore, and self-actualize in. The paradox of the realization was that the project and vision were entirely about me (as they were coming through me), but at the same time, had nothing to do with me at all (as the ethos is to serve the collective).

As these insights came through, the Kundalini energy moved more strongly in my root chakra than ever before in my life. I was jumping up and down uncontrollably. My body was in a state of orgasmic ecstasy.

This sounds strange, but anyone who has experienced this Kundalini energy activating can attest to this. My entire pelvic area was pulsating as if I was "penetrating the world" with creative energy. I have felt this energy and sensation constantly ever since, especially when I am actively creating something in alignment with this vision and purpose.

Since this call, the clarity on what I would be the vessel to create has been nearly unshakeable. I have a strong feeling I have found my life’s work, the projects I will be working on for the next 50 years. And there’s no need to rush or force anything! Everything is happening on its own, in perfect timing. Just like the rave (;

One more note: I am incredibly grateful to my friend Tyler for always being the mirror who can help me unlock insights via his questions and deep knowing of who I am. Cherish your friends, and never underestimate the value of having people in your life who can truly see you and truly want to see your highest growth and ascension.

Kundalini Session With Marla

“Kundalini energy is a form of spiritual energy believed to reside at the base of the spine, often described as a coiled serpent. It originates from ancient yogic and tantric traditions, particularly in Hinduism. The concept of Kundalini suggests that this energy, when awakened, can rise through the chakras (energy centers) along the spine, leading to spiritual enlightenment, expanded consciousness, and deep personal transformation.”

A few days after this Kundalini Call with Tyler, I had a Kundalini activation session planned with my good friend from Pai, Marla.

We were supposed to do the session a few weeks earlier, but I got horribly sick the night before, throwing up 20+ times. I thought it was food poisoning. Now I know it was God delaying the experience because the timing was not right.

Now, I came into the session primed and ready for the activation. I was already connecting to the Kundalini for the past few weeks, and felt it more strongly than ever before on my call with Tyler.

But for the first five minutes, nothing was happening. I was lying on the floor, listening to spiritual music, wondering if I was supposed to say something, do something, or feel something. I asked Marla, “Should I talk?” and she said, “No, just stop thinking.”

Then, a shift happened. I felt a piercing sensation in between my eyebrows, directly in the third eye. From that moment on, I was seeing clearly. Not with my eyes, but with a higher vision. Intuition. Spiritual sight. Immense clarity came forth.

Now, the vision of the school that I first discovered on my call with Tyler was both enlarged and enhanced. I had a strong knowing that if a school were going to come into the world at the intersection of the creator economy and the revolution in human consciousness, I would be the vessel to create it. I got this sense based on my life experiences as a quarterback, my personality as a Leo and Manifesting Generator, my experience in the creator economy, my recent spiritual awakening, my insatiable curiosity across interests, my ability to connect people across domains, and my big-picture visionary-thinking approach to life. I realized it’s just in my nature to think big, bring people together, and bring creations into the world.

I was able to look at this creation and my role as the vessel for it objectively, almost from an outside perspective. I was looking at “Jack Moses’s” role in this project as if I were seeing him as another person. In this state of seeing clearly from the third eye as a result of the kundalini energy activating throughout the body, it was clear it was my destiny to become the vessel to bring this project into manifestation.

Aside from the school, other clarity and insights happened throughout the session. My body was also moving without my conscious intention. The left hand was motioning someone in and receiving energy. The right hand was throwing a spiral or unleashing creativity with the palm up, similar to how Spiderman shoots spiderwebs. I knew intuitively that my left hand was meant to be for receiving, nurturing, and bringing others in, and I knew my right hand was for creation, order, accuracy, and aim. I learned later the left hand is the hand of receiving and the right hand is the hand of creating in Reiki and Yogic traditions.

There was also immense energy arising in the chest. I felt the strong urge to expand and take up space. I literally started doing backbends during the session without consciously intending to, if you can believe it.

I left the session with heightened power and clarity on my future of being the vessel to bring these projects to fruition.

Tarot Cards 1 & 2 Come Full Circle

Through these insights of non-separation and non-duality at the rave and clear perception I experienced from the third-eye vision in the Kundalini Activation and the Kundalini Call with Tyler, the Tarot Card reading clicked.

The duality of the two sides of myself collapsed into one all-encompassing expression of myself. From this place of internal clarity and alignment, the external clarity on the projects I could create became crystal clear.

The school I am creating, "Conscious Creators," is a synthesized knowledge center of everything I'm interested in, from online business to writing to creativity to psychology to metaphysics to spirituality to playing and collaborating with friends.

I can bring the online world in person through retreats and Conscious Creator festivals.

Oh, and I can play sports, start DJ'ing, play NBA2K, and go to parties, raves, and dance too (:

I no longer feel I have to "choose" between two sides of myself or two ways of being.

It's all me.

Because of this clarity, I've "cut through" the "problem" of the two sides of myself, represented by card 1 - the King of Swords.

I trust the abundance I know I'm destined for will manifest as a result of this clarity, as I focus on universal principles of love, play, and service as the guiding compass for how I'm living my life.

Card #3 - The Crossroads

The third card (the traveler with two sticks) still has not crystalized, but I have a strong feeling I will be deciding between two paths for myself.

On one hand, I feel a pull to spend a lot of time in Austin as many of my good friends live there and are incredibly aligned with my life philosophy and ethos.

On the other hand, I feel a pull to go back out traveling. I have a vision of myself DJ'ing at psytrance festivals in Thailand. I want to run Conscious Creator festivals around the world. And I've always felt the strong pull to India.

Right now, I don't know which way I will go.

But I also think that maybe, the "decision" is choosing not to make a choice at all, staying in the present moment, and trusting the "right" decision of where to be will reveal itself to me when the time is right.

This is likely the way (;

What Happened To The Witch?

Real quick, you might be wondering what happened to my Witch friend.

Here's the weirdest thing:

I asked for her name about five times, but no matter how hard I tried, I could never remember it.

In classic witch fashion, like it was straight out of a movie, she appeared right when I needed her, worked some magic, communicated with spirit entities and the cosmos, helped me reach a new insight, and vanished.

She actually reappeared a day later, and then a week later, to check on me and ask if I was okay, but no matter how many times I asked, I could never remember her name. I feel a bit bad about this. This sweet girl came into my life, helped point me in the direction of life-changing insight, did it all for free, and checked on me multiple times afterward to see if I was okay. And for whatever reason, I couldn't remember her name.

Maybe this is part of her witchcraft. Maybe I'm not meant to remember her name. But regardless, I have immense gratitude in my heart for this girl, and I give my deepest thanks for her desire to serve me via her zone of genius, reading Tarot Cards, communicating with spirits, and being a Witch. If you are somehow reading this from the bottom of my heart, thank you. <3

What’s Next?

There are at least two more letters I’d like to write in this Asia Adventures series. #4 will be called “A Journey To The South: King Energy, Stepping Into My Fire, & An Old Pattern Reemerges,” and #5 will be called “The Summer of Antifragility: Alchemizing Chaos Into Wisdom.”

I might turn these five letters into a book to encapsulate the entire summer. If you’d like to read it and own a copy, let me know.

In terms of what’s next for me practically in life, a lot of exciting things are unfolding:

• I am going to Peru with two friends to sit with ayahuasca five times over a 10-day retreat

• I am moving into an AirBnB in Austin, Texas with a friend for the month of November.

• I am running my first men’s retreat in Austin, Texas November 21-24 with my friend Cameron Hogan.

• I am in the process of setting up an open festival in Zilker Park in Austin in the month of November.

• I am offering drop-in and acceleration calls until I leave for Peru on October 16.

But there is a new level I have to go to within myself to bring all these projects to fruition as well as make strategic moves with work and finances to make sure I don’t run out of money, as I’ve been investing heavily in coaching, courses, books, AirBnB’s, hotels, software, food, etc.

I want to rediscover the disciplined warrior, the monk-like part of me, the dude who got up at 430am and took a cold shower for three months straight to build his first cohort and write a 4000+ word newsletter every week. The visions of the school, the retreats, the festivals, and the books are great and beautiful. But without the discipline to wake up every day and make progress on them, they mean nothing. This is my focus for the next 12 days before Peru.

Thank you for reading

If you made it to the end, I greatly appreciate you taking the time to read about my adventures.

Oftentimes, as I read these stories back, I am as surprised myself as I imagine you might be. The wildest thing is I’m probably including about 10-20% of all that happened this summer in these letters. It seemed like every day out there traveling, something incredible happened. It was a beautiful time. But I’m still digesting much of it.

That’s all for this one. Be on the lookout for edition #4 - “A Journey To The South: King Energy, Stepping Into My Fire, & An Old Pattern Reemerges,” - and before then, I’ll likely be writing some shorter posts both here and on X.

Until next time,

Jack

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If you want to read the entire story of my adventures this summer - clink this link to read edition #4.